you did this to a girl that trusted you you did this to a girl that trusted you

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my faovuirte movie when i was 4. thumbelina. i didn't even get to watch it again. i didn't get to watch so many movies again, i haven't bene able to watch trv with my mama fior 3 years.


how cna i not just cry and cry and cry and cry and puke all night.

how could he? i really mean it. how could he. why. why did i have to be single and in danger. why. why . why 


i endured so much. i suffered so much my whole life but nothing compared to this. i just enduredb ecause.. i hoped for good. i hoped ofr things to bcome okay.
and they finllay.~
tjey finally became okay in the end of 2019 amd the.
and 2020
they finally became good
even in thw orst of my mouth pain

it was okay
i was so
happy playing
piano watching
tv shows for the firs ttime i was so
happy
how
i can't
i am
going to explode from pain and sadnesss
i can't.
i can't believe this hash appened
this is an entire. nightmare and so much grief i don't feel real and i can't. live its too painful its too much grief
why why did i meet him why did i meet someone who was willing to take so much. i can't belive im so 
im 
so
it hurts
it hurts
it hurts
it hurts 
it hurts
 it hutrs
it hurts
 it hurts
 it hurts 


help
iwould tear out all my bones to not have met you
wi woudl tear out all my hair to not have met you
i wish you didn't
i wish
i wish
i wish
i wish
help
help
help
my whole life
was
life
it was happy
it was life


you did this to a girl that
trusted you
you did this to a girl that
trusted you


















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