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 when i feel my teeth twisted in my mouth and how i can't close it, I panic so deeply i feel i'm going to die

when I realise I've lost 3 years with my mama. my mama and my matsan. my worst fear, i used to write every day in my diary when i was 15 was that i'd lose time with them

that realisation? of that? is the worst fear i've ever felt in my life? I puke? i cry? I feel like i'm going to die? i literally just puked from panic? I can't keep anything down. it's not getting easier


How could someone HAVE DONE THIS TO MY HEALTH? I CAN'T ITS SO SCARY I CAN'T??????

i cannot believe they let me buy them an entire 4 plane tickets as someone who just met me? and didn't listen enough about my debt situation? and then gave me covid? taking away my health just completely? taking away the hope I had of fixing my mouth which was so traumatic? help?


this is so horrible i cannot be alive and live with the fact this has happened? It's all the grief i was scared of when i was 4 years old? it's this?


help? lni why? why i'm so scared i can't sstop puking why did you do this i can't sleep i can't do anything. my health my health

my little life that i had here. with my cat and my mommy what di ytou do

what did oyu do oh my god im so scared what did you do by giving my covid what did you do

you had a thousand chances to do the right thing and save me and you didn't on any of the times where it would've saved my life which is how this is so bad. help help help help help help help help i can't i can't i can't 

im just so sensitive. my heart is so fragile.


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