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i can't believe i used to lie on my bed

i can't believe i used to be able to just watch tv,
how amazing that would feel

i can't believe i used to be able to spend time with my mom
i would give anything

i can't believe i used to be able to spend time cuddling matsan
it hurts everything hurts

i can't believe i used to be able to play any game on my pc
what a beautiful, incredible gift that would be, what a blessing

i can't believe i used to be able to go outside and walk to the park
what heaven

i can't believe i used to be able to do exercise in my room
what fun and a blessing

i can't believe i used to be able to talk to my friends and not be silent in grief and shock and confusion
so incredible and fun that would be

i can't believe i used to be able to read any  book?
unbelievable, what a gift to be able to do that, entire worlds at your fingertips, how special and amazing

i can't believe i used to be able to clean my home?
that would be so fun and lovely to do 

i can't believe i used to be able to ride a bicycle? 
that's unbelievable, how fun and freeing, i can't imagine

i can't believe i used ot be bale to just pick up paper and a pencil and draw
that was so amazing

I can't believe I used to be able to pick up a hobby or do anything at home you wanted?
how incredibly wonderfully freeing and exciting and fun?

i can't believe i used to be able to just learn any language? just start learning? 
what an incredible thing to be able to spend time doing

i can't believe i used to be able to wear any clothes i wanted? anything in the wardrobe?
that's so fun and amazing. what a gift to be able to do that

i can't imagine being able to walk around your home into any room and be able to look at the room?
how comforting and special

i can't imagine being able to listen to music?
that sounds like a dream come true, heaven on earth, what a gift?!

i can't believe i used to be able to pick up an instrument and play it
what! incredible? a dream come true?

i can't believe i used to be able to sing
how freeing and special

i can't believe i used to take a camera and take photos on things?
how incredible that would be

i can't believe i used to be able to watch anything on youtube
that would be so exciting and amazing

i can't believe i used to be able to watch any tv show
what a beautiful exciting world of wonder i miss so much

i can't believe i used to be able to play with dolls and puzzles
how beautiful

i miss everything. i'm missing it more now than i would be missing it if i was dead. 
above all i can't believe someone might risk taking all this from someone.

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